Thursday, July 25, 2013

a reason to celebrate

Hello from Weaverville, North Carolina!

i'm at Windy Gap, which is an amazing place where last Saturday 175 high school kids stood up and proclaimed that they said, "i do" to Jesus that week.

Pretty incredible, but thank goodness it's not just about numbers. Each camper has a story, and i've had the privilege to participate in what is hopefully one of the best weeks of their lives. One camper in particular is here right now, and God chose him to stir my heart two days ago at the rock climbing tower where i work.

Isaac is blind; he's here with a group of visually/hearing impaired students. My interaction with him was simple but lovely. i hesitantly {doubtfully} handed him a harness and helmet before realizing my help was necessary in this preparation process. My thoughts wandered to, "how do i belay someone who can't see," and, "i can't do this." Can't. How gross that i had such little faith in that moment, before joyful Isaac brought me back, telling me about his five laps around the Nascart track by himself. 
Miracle number one of the day.

i then witnessed, through blurry eyes, Isaac slowly but surely climb all the way to the top of the tower.. held up by me.. each hand and foot placement directed by me. {Lord, i am not worthy of such an important task! Thank You!} i spoke, gentle yet firm, and Isaac confidently obeyed. Once or twice he called out, "do NOT let me down! i'm gonna get this." and when he reached the top, he didn't even know until i told him.

Man, i want to be like Isaac. i want to trust God: sit back in my harness as He lowers me into valleys and climb confidently with the knowledge that He's got me when i get weak and need to rest. Just as Isaac listened to each step, using all his strength to get there, i want to hear God and obey. Like how he had no idea what i looked like or how strong i was, Isaac trusted that i wouldn't let him fall or lead him astray. i want to trust and have hope like that. Like how Isaac yearned for that victorious moment even though he couldn't see the obstacle in front of him. i want to want it that bad. Miracle number two.

Now a third revelation i experienced in that situation was the miraculous gift of intimate, appropriate touch. Hugging Isaac when he returned to ground was such a sweet and humbling moment where i got to praise Jesus and celebrate this small but huge feat.

Hope. Hear. Trust. Obey. Celebrate.


Wednesday, July 10, 2013

divine appointment | present-day miracle

One of the great things about pursuing Jesus daily is that He has already been pursuing me {and you} forever. So it's not this one-way street of unrequited love. He will make Himself known if i'm willing to look beyond the physical realm we live in and see into the spiritual realm where God is working everyday. And sometimes divine interventions are unavoidably and obviously crafted by Him, like my encounter with James in Williams, Arizona.

i never pictured angels wearing leather bomber jackets and Converse sneakers but hey, God works in mysterious ways and shouldn't be limited (not to mention He loves blowing my expectations to bits). Okay, quick background info: i road-tripped with my Young Life team to Arizona where all of UTYL met and prepared Lost Canyon (a camp for high schoolers). When the work was done, we spent a day at the Grand Canyon worshipping and admiring this natural wonder of the world.

So on the way back to camp, we got hungry and stopped in the little town of Williams for dinner. We were crossing the street when a guy not too far from our age called out letting us know that this Mexican restaurant was good. Sweet, he sounded like he knew the area better than we did so we took his advice.. and invited him to eat with us too. As it turned out, he hadn't been there for too long; he had bought a motorcycle in Washington and drove down the west coast until he stopped there because he was down to one penny.

i could go on and on about his incredible story and how unique his perspective was, but i'll use the biblical book of James to convey what he taught me.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." (1:2-3)
  • On the coast of northern California James decided to go surfing in a storm. After large waves and wind knocked him under and broke his board in half, he found himself closer to death than he had ever felt. He tried fighting the currents, gave up knowing he couldn't win and in a final moment of desperation he called out to Jesus to save him. Here, he found himself standing on a rock out in the middle of the water. And we think miracles are outdated! Watching him tell this story with tears in his eyes and the biggest smile told me he wasn't kidding. Talk about a test of faith.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." (1:5-6)

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." (1:12)

"The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position." (1:9)
  • James had a lovely attitude about money that opened my eyes and reminded me of God's promise of provision. "Use what you need and give the rest away." I saw that when he donated half of his wallet to the live musician playing at the restaurant. Wealth can replace our trust in God if we're not careful. {he had just gotten a job as a waiter in Williams}
"Every good and perfect gift is from above." (1:17)

"God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble." (4:6)
  • Along the way, James stopped to try and snag a care pack that was being distributed to homeless war veterans. He knew he was lying but figured he could really use what they were offering in the package, so when the man asked for James' military identification number, he threw out a random number. It didn't work, and he explained his situation and apologized for lying. Said he learned his lesson and moved on. But as he was leaving the man came to him with a pack saying God told him to give it to James. Thanks God.
"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." (1:22)

"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." (2:17)

  • James had read the book Love Does and believed in the power of doing. In fact, he reminds me of Bob Goff, the book's crazy and incredibly wise author.

"keep oneself from being polluted by the world." (1:27)

  • We asked James if he had a phone, to which he replied, "lately, no." He decided that his phone hindered him from interacting with people. The way he saw it, if he had a question he would much rather ask someone and have a great conversation than Google search and find the answer immediately. What a beautiful and adventurous perspective. 

"Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." (4:14)

  • A harsh truth, but a reminder to live fully and live in the present. As James told stories of fun times camping on beaches, he remembered when a man passed him going to work in the morning and then again in the evening. He stopped and offered James to stay on his property, which ended up being in a California celebrity neighborhood. {not to mention James knows Macklemore. what?}

"Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise." (5:13)

  • This defines my angel, James. After a long dinner, we laid hands on James and prayed for him. And in return, he tearfully prayed the most beautiful, genuine prayer i have EVER heard. His asking was begging and his thankfulness was deep, heartfelt gratitude that had my whole team crying. i have chills just thinking about it.
i know James is human, but he's also my angel because i know that God reached His hand down and placed him in my life that day to teach me not to be so narrow-minded about life. And now every time i see a single penny, i think of James.

THE TEAM AND JAMES.
{Abbey, Hayden, Matthew, Haleigh, Katie, Tayler, Annie, James, me}

i think this captures the joy i felt that day..

Friday, July 5, 2013

the comeback

For the last three months i've stared at my computer aware of the thoughts and stories i want to get out, but for some reason i just couldn't do it. i'm struggling to type right now too. i know how much i've experienced and grown this season but i realize i haven't slowed down enough to process it all.

A professor last semester said that we need punctuation marks in life. Celebrations, ceremonies, rituals and even tragedies mark seasons in our lives and help us slow down. Birthdays, weddings, funerals, promotions and graduations are some common examples of exclamation marks. There are commas, periods and question marks as well.. And then there's the place in which i've found myself: a run-on sentence. 

As my first year of college came to a close, i took my finals, moved back home, drove to Arizona with my Young Life team, started my internship with West Houston Young Life, took weekend trips to Canyon Lake and Austin, rode a bus to a high school camp in Colorado, came back and then did it again with more high school friends to go hiking for a week in the wilderness. And that's where i realized what i was doing. Well, more like what i wasn't doing.

i was told in the Young Life office about a book called The Rest of God, which reminds us that there is power and healing in practicing the Sabbath like God intended for us. It's not an ancient rule that no longer applies to us. It's liberation; a chance to sit back and heal, feed, rescue, celebrate, lavish and relish the abundant life we've been given (Mark Buchanan). We work so hard to fill all our time with productivity, but our Creator tells us that is not going to fill our souls. Refuel by doing something you love; by separating yourself from your busyness and by being still

"The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath." - Mark 2:27

It's a gift. The backpacking trip i just returned from was surprisingly relaxing for me and provided me an opportunity to completely disconnect and spend time in creation with my one true Love. It opened my eyes to the beauty i've experienced in the last few months and how i haven't spent enough time thanking the Lord for what He's taught me. And even though i'll be in and out of town until summer ends, my excitement for spilling my thoughts has returned and i can't wait to share my
adventures of pursuing Jesus daily.

"Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he [Jesus] said to them, 'Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.'" - Mark 6:31


"The truth is, God would never endorse a pace (even in ministry) that leaves us so worn out that we have little time and energy for him at the end of the day. On the other hand, I know who would love to keep you busy, frantic, worn out, beat-up, and used up." - Vicki Courtney, author of Ever After