ladder to the stars {part one}

"and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us." - Acts 17:26-27

Well i may not know what i'm doing here, but at least someone does. i have the opportunity to study at a wonderful university and it's easy to feel like time is running out. i just honestly don't know what i want to get from this. It's hard feeling like you're growing up but don't have a clue what that is going to look like.

i started praying for this about 9 months ago, have asked many people about it in that time, finally turned to the Word of God for an answer about 2 weeks ago.. yet i'm still empty-handed. And it's frustrating and discouraging and confusing and aimless but it's not an accident.

Because i trust that, as long as i'm pursuing Him, God will unveil my eyes at the right moment– i'm just not there yet. So i need to calm down.. the clock is ticking but God hasn't left me behind!

"he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts" - Luke 1:51

"to enable us to serve him without fear.. all our days." - Luke 1:74

It's possible that pride is a reason for my lack of direction. i've been able to get along "on my own" just fine– actually i'm very pleased with how my life has gone so far– so plucking that sense of personal accomplishment from my hands {and thoughts} leaves me humbled and incompetent like a child. But it's the escape from the world's "on my own" mindset that actually frees us and enables us to serve 

without fear.

"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation" 

- Philippians 4:11-12

Still can't believe i'm now the chaperone at the homecoming dance. 

Thank God for name-tags.. the only thing distinguishing me from a high school student.

{p.s. don't my girls look beautiful?}

but let's be real.. i'm still a kid who loves getting messy and roller blading in minion costumes and wearing overalls and getting on shoulders to be able to see at concerts.

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